Boy or Girl??

I'm writing this just a few hours before our week 20 ultrasound where we hope to find out if we're having a boy or girl! That's right, a few hours before which means you won't find out on this post. I know, it's just cruel!

So as of today I start into the 5th month of our pregnancy. Despite the growing bulge of a belly, sometimes we get hit with a sudden realization that we're about to have a kiddo. Being it's our first, I feel like a fish out of water. I think regardless of all the advise or books I read, it's all going to go out the window once it happens. No, not quite having any panick attacks but I do get those brief moments when something crosses my mind and my eyes grow a little wider and my pulse picks up a little bit. I've already  had the dream where the baby is coming and I realize I don't have anything ready. No suitcase for mom-to-be or the baby and there's no way I was going to tell Anthony to pack something because he's already running around looking for help. I imagine I'll have more of those dreams.

I'm physically feeling well, a huge improvement from all the problems of the first trimester, with the exception of frequent headaches and migraines. Those have been no fun. Anthony has been playing a bit of mother hen when I have those rough days, thank god, even though he himself has already had a long day of 2 hours of bicycling to and from work then a hectic work schedule. He's being a trooper.

Knowing our lives will change in a short 4 months, I've been encouraging Anthony to venture further out with his bicycling. I will have spent the majority of the first year in Australia pregnant but I didn't want that to stop Anthony from taking advantage of some wonderful cycling spots that Oz has to offer. He's signed up for some upcoming mountain bike races for which I'm glad because he'll get to ride in some beautiful places. I will attempt to go to as many of them as possible but some of this further and longer races will probably be a bit trying for me. Plus we still have the 3 furry rugrats to take care of at home. So hopefully we'll get some good cycling pictures up here in the next few months.

Well, going to wrap up for now so I can get ready for the doctor's appointment. Fingers crossed that the "bub" will cooperate and let us take a peek to find out if it's a he or she!!

- julie